dno since wen.. i suddenly found the world a patch of darkness.. void of sympathy and humanity.. each day i step into class.. i feel more n more down.. i realised.. it's more of a world whereby no1 cares abt u.. no1 gives a damn.. dey jus leave u to die liddat..
recently i've been more accomodating and open.. but sumtimes i feel dat pple go overboard dat i cant even bother to argue.. i haf been less insistent.. n im really worried abt disastrous consequences.. wen overly-ambitious pple try to build castles in the air whilst i stand aside worrying the shit outta me... it's really SHIT..
i dno whether im doing the rite thing.. but i noe i shldn give up liddat.. but i tried.. n im on the verge of bursting frm extreme frustration.. dat i feel like punching sandbags now..

recently it has been too happening seriously... things at home havent been dat great too.. dat pathetic mere few hours spent at home can get prettaye torturous at times.. things in soccer havent been dat smooth.. but wad's great is dat we go thru thick n thin tgt... strong bonds get stronger.. coaches have been veri encouraging and understanding... maybe certain things go our way.. i dont noe how to explain things.. but i feel the pain..
everything dat happened really tugged mi heartstrings real hard.. sumtimes i wish i cld jus go on crying forever... but dere seems to b no other way out..
mi mentee and her ignorance has been more den worrying.. i almost lost mi temper...
despite all dat i haf done. .sumtimes i realise things r so not gng mi way n im losing mi patience and optimism i shld haf...

n please dont tell mi u're worried for mi wen u dont mean it.. it makes mi even more gaowei wif wad's gng on now alr seriously.. im better off on mi own.. really.. leave mi alone.. i will do jus fine...

i cant stop caring i realised.. as much as im trying to tell miself notta care notta care notta care...
deres no easy way out...